Thursday, August 18, 2011

all in time.

What you are comes to you. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

This quote is exactly where I am right now, waiting for it to all come to me.  I am just going to try my best to set myself up for happiness in my career and wellness. 

Its back to working out and pushing it so I can feel like myself again.  Ever since the move things have been weird, but that's about to change.  I will still be cooking and recipe testing as I always am, but in moderation and with the addition of more regular exercise.  Life is way too beautiful to spend it unhappy in your shell.  I need my full confidence back, I call that the wonder woman feeling.

I am also considering a job/career change.  As much as I adore my sweet coworkers, I need something else.  Working in customer service/sales is so stressful it makes my brain spin.  Getting paid to be a doormat to a person's problem and anger makes for a really long day and I want my weekends back.  It would be awesome to have two days off a week that are the same as everyone else, including the boyfriend and family.  I have dreams about what  it would be like to go home to Tennessee on a long weekend or make breakfast for my sweetie on a Sunday.  I am also looking for something that will get me in the door with the potential for advancement.  I also would like to work into something with holiday time off too, that would make me so happy.  How wonderful would it be to go home for Christmas?  The whole idea makes me want to cry honestly. 

I am not going to get my hopes up but in the end everything works out the way it is supposed to, it always has and I have no reason to believe that that would change.  I am just going to put myself out there, keep my eyes open, and say my prayers that whatever should happen will.  In the meantime I plan to love my life, treasure the time I do have to spend with the ones I love, and go in the way of my dreams.

Part of me believes that if I can get a job that is less stressful and more routine, that I would be about to spend more time on all of my beloved side projects....knitting, cooking, sewing, blogging, writing my novella, and anything else I want to do.  Those are the things that pump blood in my heart, and I can't imagine my life being complete without those things.  I am at a transitional stage and ironically its starting to become fall. 

Ohhhh chhhhanges...