Bob Marley once said, "Live the life you love. Love the life you live", but how do you find the balance between living in today's world and living in the world that you want?
The more life I experience the more I realize how grey everything really is. From big, hard decisions to everyday small dilemmas it seems we are constantly having to choose one side or the other even though most of us would rather stay somewhere in the middle. Everything from loving and letting go to moving on and holding on and all that lies in between.
Can we have it all? Can you have a successful career and still have a social life? Can you care about someone so deeply and not get your heart broken? Who honestly knows...
But maybe, just maybe I can have my cake and eat it too and if nothing else I can bake it.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
a dreamer? absolutely
Some people will say let your dreams run wild and that if you can dream it you can do it, but at what point do you have to reel your ambition in and accept your fate?
My whole life has been filled with dreams about how I want to live, where I want to live, what I want to do, and who I want to do it with, but it seems that no one told me how very hard everything would be to the deepest degree. Living alone has helped me realize what I want for myself now more than ever before.
I want an adventure, the kind with the unexpected twists and turns. I know and believe in my heart that GOD has a huge, wonderful plan for my life. The catch is just waiting to see the grand plan unfold. In my heart of hearts I know there is a reason I moved to Atlanta, even though I miss my family and all of my friends dearly. I love ATL and my apartment, but talking to people you love on the phone is not the same as them being completely in touch with your life on a day to day basis. I feel like I am out of touch with all that I love and I hate that. I hate being lonely all the time and having no one to talk to in person, but in the end there is a plan for me being here at this very moment.
I have HUGE dreams that I can barely be able to contain in this blog, but they are going to come true...eventually. I want to travel the world and see museums, parks, history, and native culture everywhere. I want to see it all and do it all with my camera and the ones that I love. I want to backpack across Europe and keep a journal of all the truly amazing things that I will see. I want to feel alive and feel like a bottomless pit of cultural knowledge that is never full because there is so much to learn still.
I want to run an eatery and be so creative with my food that people are inspired. I want people to feel comforted by dishes and yet always surprised. One of these days I will run a 60ish seat unique eatery with eclectic furniture and friendly staff.
Keep your dreams BIG but the love you give to others BIGGER.
My whole life has been filled with dreams about how I want to live, where I want to live, what I want to do, and who I want to do it with, but it seems that no one told me how very hard everything would be to the deepest degree. Living alone has helped me realize what I want for myself now more than ever before.
I want an adventure, the kind with the unexpected twists and turns. I know and believe in my heart that GOD has a huge, wonderful plan for my life. The catch is just waiting to see the grand plan unfold. In my heart of hearts I know there is a reason I moved to Atlanta, even though I miss my family and all of my friends dearly. I love ATL and my apartment, but talking to people you love on the phone is not the same as them being completely in touch with your life on a day to day basis. I feel like I am out of touch with all that I love and I hate that. I hate being lonely all the time and having no one to talk to in person, but in the end there is a plan for me being here at this very moment.
I have HUGE dreams that I can barely be able to contain in this blog, but they are going to come true...eventually. I want to travel the world and see museums, parks, history, and native culture everywhere. I want to see it all and do it all with my camera and the ones that I love. I want to backpack across Europe and keep a journal of all the truly amazing things that I will see. I want to feel alive and feel like a bottomless pit of cultural knowledge that is never full because there is so much to learn still.
I want to run an eatery and be so creative with my food that people are inspired. I want people to feel comforted by dishes and yet always surprised. One of these days I will run a 60ish seat unique eatery with eclectic furniture and friendly staff.
Keep your dreams BIG but the love you give to others BIGGER.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Waiting on the Bottom to Fall Out.
People always say things will get worse before they get better, but how can you tell if this is the worst of it or if the bottom is waiting to fall out?
Moving to a new city alone is challenging to say the least, but there is also something so pure about the whole experience so far. Being away from everything you have ever known in a new zipcode really makes you evaluate everything that is real about the life you have been thrown into. Starting your first job fresh out of college allows you to see what you want from your life and how you can live for the future without forgetting the present. I don't like my new job, that's no secret, but the hope of having my dreams come true is the reason I am able to wake up in the morning with my brain spinning.
I am in love with food, techniques, and everything culinary related so that is the dream. I want to go to culinary school, travel and eat my way around the world, be healthy in my heart and soul, fall in love with a wonderful man, and eventually open an eatery.
I am not a patient person, so knowing I have to wait for all these things to happen is utterly obnoxious, but once again you have to do what it takes. In the end, whatever it takes is exactly what it takes.
So, while I am waiting and hoping that everything will work out, I'm gonna be cooking it up in my kitchen, walking my dog, and saying my prayers.
Moving to a new city alone is challenging to say the least, but there is also something so pure about the whole experience so far. Being away from everything you have ever known in a new zipcode really makes you evaluate everything that is real about the life you have been thrown into. Starting your first job fresh out of college allows you to see what you want from your life and how you can live for the future without forgetting the present. I don't like my new job, that's no secret, but the hope of having my dreams come true is the reason I am able to wake up in the morning with my brain spinning.
I am in love with food, techniques, and everything culinary related so that is the dream. I want to go to culinary school, travel and eat my way around the world, be healthy in my heart and soul, fall in love with a wonderful man, and eventually open an eatery.
I am not a patient person, so knowing I have to wait for all these things to happen is utterly obnoxious, but once again you have to do what it takes. In the end, whatever it takes is exactly what it takes.
So, while I am waiting and hoping that everything will work out, I'm gonna be cooking it up in my kitchen, walking my dog, and saying my prayers.
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